The vision in my right eye hasn't gotten better and I'm still waiting for the results of a MRI taken Thursday night.
And there were only a couple of times today when I felt like I could stick my head in a toilet and throw up because of the potential fear of losing eyesight in that eye or in both. Having a bad knee or shoulder is an annoyance, but having impaired sight takes you to a whole different league.
Today, I went to my primary care provider to schedule an appointment to have a doppler test taken on my carotid artery. A blockage there produces symptoms similar to my loss of vision in one eye. To have an extra set of ears, I took my wife to the appointment.
To prepare for the results of the MRI, I am putting together a list of questions about what they have found or didn't find and what it means. I don't want to end my next time with the eye doctor and realize that I didn't ask all the questions.
How am I handling the fear factor?
It's there like a being hiding behind a nearby tree. It sticks its head out when I least expect it. I'm working on my defense.
A friend of my wife's referred me to this verse from Psalm 46:10-- "Be still and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth."
Verse one says , God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, even though the earth be removed, and though the mountains be carried into the midst of the sea."