I feel my gut tightening up about tomorrow and next week at the vascular surgeon and the neurologist
My grandson Xavier gave me this coffee mug and I'll be thinking about what it says when I have a doppler taken of my carotid arteries tomorrow morning. I'll also be thinking about the phrase from the Ephesians chapter one which can be summarized by four words "Remember Who You Are."
And I'll be thinking about it next week when I have a hour-and-a-half neurologist's appointment to determine if I have Parkinson's Disease. For me my health continues to be a distraction.
In recent weeks, I have had increasing difficulty in being comfortably mobile because of skeletal stiffness. My voice has changed from being strong to barely a whisper. My balance is way off . It increased with almost twenty visits to a physical therapy clinic. My gait is not normal with me walk way stooped over.
Back to my carotids, one is completely blocked and the other a few months ago was 20 percent. Then there's my eyes. My cornea transplant seems to be working most of the time. And my glaucoma affects my vision.
What does all this mean as my gut tightens not knowing what the future will bring? I know that God selected me as his dearly loved son and I'll be grabbing onto that hope.
Will I continue to write about my health? You bet. Doing so, helps me sort out my feelings and to share with my grandkids that people get older and sometimes, they get sick.